Thursday, June 29, 2006
feeling empty...
this morning i woke up feeling different. cause carrie is not here anymore. i had started missing her already. haiz...& my eyes were like burning since morning till now all because of yesterday i sort off cry on bed and was too tired tt i knock out n fall asleep. so in the end i went to sch wif a pair of goldfish eyes. tt is such an ugly sight.
11:41:00 PM
today's weather was unexpectedly gd. the sky was so clear, the clouds were beautiful and the wind was cold althought the sun is hanging high up there. when i on my handphone in the morning, it beep a few times & i just know tt it's carrie who sms me. she just pop by to say tt she has reached melbourne and everything is fine. after reading tt sms, it just make me less worried abt her. as long she is doing fine tt's all i ask god for.
when i reached sch after an hour of bloody long bus ride, i didn't see a single soul in class & i was wondering whether is today a public holiday? in the end, our class were suppose to meet at somerset for a site trip round orchard rd...& NO ONE INFORM ME ABT IT...HOW NICE MY CLASSMATES WERE ISN'T IT??? thank god my teacher didn't left without me coz there were also alot of ppl who didn't get the message n they were rushing down frm sch too~
so uncle steven bring us to those wuloo parts of orchard. it really let us get to experience a different part of orchard. actually orchard not only has it's busy side. it also has it's quiet side too~ those shop houses behind alley bar were beautiful. the way they were constructed and the scale of every house and pathway were just cute coz everything is so small. we walk past a crossroad and saw a huge saga tree sitting on top of a wall. the roots of the tree was growing on the wall and not behind the wall where the soil was. the amazing part was a point where we can see the roots make a U-turn and grow towards those drainage hole on the wall towards the soil! it just makes u wonder how the roots r able to feel the moisture and grow towards it.
in the end uncle steven left wif a task. he wan us to do 10 sketches of orchard rd b4 heading back to sch for the 2pm lecture.
tt's life~
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
You are missed...
An hour has passed...but to me it just feel like 5 mins ago that carrie has flew off to melbourne. Before she went into the departure hall, we hug each other goodbye & cried. Crying was not in my plan coz i know it's bad to send her off that way. but when i saw her crying when she hugged her sis goodbye, my eyes start to teared too...we dun bare to let each other go & we know tt very well but we got to let go no matter how (even till now i still feel like crying. it's like there's something missing)...With her father nagging at the back "it's time liao. faster go in." I was like "y can't the hell he just shut up & let us have some more quality time. it's like who the hell we bare to let go a friend tt has been throught all her ups n down for 13 years!" 13 years man! no joke! she was my only anytime-anywhere kakiz...she was a friend i grew up wif & we have seen each other's disgusting stage of life when we were young & we never mind abt tt at all.
11:07:00 PM
ever since young we were very different. she was frm a english speaking family n i was frm a chinese speaking family. she always do well in her exmas & i'm totally opp. becoz of one sch sentosa trip we got to talk to each other. our way of communicating wif each other was unique!hahaha!~ she was speaking english to me while i'm speaking chinese to her! & we understand wat each other are talking abt. since then, we were best friend.
since monday, i can't sleep well. i will toss n turn like nobody business. dun know for wat bloody reason. perharps i'm too worried. worried that no one will b at her side when she needs one. worried that no one will b there to cheer her on. worried that no one will be there to share her joy n tears.
just now at the airport, i gave her a scrapbook that contains those photos that we had took since young and a few other small gifts as a farewell gift & lester bought her the chocolate from baroque~ When we were there choosing the chocolates, lester was thinking of buying each of every flavour and i was like "she will never be able to finish it! even if she finish it, i guess she will puke while in the plane & curse n swear at u!" so in the end he only got 4 chocolate for her! sorry babe if u wan more u got to come back to get it. hahah!
carrie baby this is for u: it's great to have a friend like you for 13 years. thx for accpecting for what n who i am. u r indeed special. sorry for all the shit i've put u through althought tt's is wat we call "life". always remember to take extra gd care of urself coz i will not b there. when u need me, i'm just a phone call away frm u. i will drop by one day to visit u so just wait for me! tt's all babe. take care.