Monday, November 27, 2006
all in a days work
it's a wet day again.
6:50:00 PM
the weather is just way too wonderful that i regret going to school. should have just stay at home and sleep. today's a little weird for me. i slept late yesterday BUT i woke up even b4 the alarm clock ring today. not a good sign. when i get to wake up like this, it simply means that my body starts to feels the stress.
haha
so in the end i did nothing much in school except drawing some rough layout of my construction details while watching goong on youtube. =P can't really concentrate anyway. my mind was sort of in disorder to even think properly. & there's like 13 days more to submission.
i'm so dead.
here r some radom pics i took.
from bright sunny day...
to rainny day... 
all you need for a day's work. 
highway home! 
tanjiong rhu...condo by the sea.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
there's 2. where's the other 3?
now it's freaking 6.59AM & i'm here blogging.
7:24:00 AM
wat a wonderful thing to do in an early saturday morning!
actually i didn't even sleep at all & now i'm starting to feel the pain at my back. must b the ass shaking session in MOS. so last night i finally met up wif aL! finally tt bro of mine is free & he's willing to spend some quality time wif his sister. love u bro~ we talk, we crap & as always, he show me his magic tricks! haha even my dad was amazed.
we were like brainstorming on where to go while he was in my place & as usual, we have run out of idea on where to go. so i suggested on going to MOS. aL was rather fine wif tt idea cause his army friends was there so it ain't tt bad. at least there's a crowd & not just the 2 of us. we both will just die there if there's only us.
the whole MOS thing was a little boring but thank god to aL's friend who entertain me wif their radom stupid dance moves~
Thursday, November 23, 2006
mind
it was cloudy.
6:48:00 PM
thank god it rain & washed it all away.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
you once gave me hope & now i'm giving mine to you
finally today i've said what i long wanted to say.
3:18:00 PM
everything that you once gave me, i guess i did give it back to you as a promise. in the end, it might just be a long lasting friendship that only the 2 of us will know the history of it. it will not be like what everybody else predicted it as.
sometimes the right timing & the right position does make a big difference.
i'm glad that we are able to talk about it face to face.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
not again..
was real shag in sch today. so after sch, my headache is back. i was wondering wat's wrong wif the weather. & i found out the answer when i was walking hm.
7:19:00 PM
didn't really get to sleep well last night cause my head was pumping hard the whole night! it's driving me crazy man! in the end when i finally knock off, i had a nightmare. can't really remember what happen but it really freak me out. so in the end, i woke up b4 the alarm clock went off. freaking 6.45AM. tt's how early i'm awake.
look at the contrast between the colour the clouds. tt's how i'm feeling in my head.
Monday, November 20, 2006
women's day out
yesterday was my usual women's day out~ meet up wif chun hui for the first time after she got married. =) was glad to see her & my future god son doing fine! too bad weiling got to work so she isn't free to join the both of us for dinner. non-stop gossip, talking abt the past & future, looking at chio bu walk pass & shopping is just so our thing!
5:43:00 PM
so we went over to ThaiExpress for dinner cause it's Mama who made the decision. the ppl there took their own sweet time to serve me my fried rice! by the time mine was serve, chun hui has already finish her green laksa. after getting done wif our main course, my dear Mama was still hungry. haha 2 person really need to eat more. so we called for the red ruby. I TELL U THE RED RUBY IS FREAKING NICE!!! carrie baby u must try! compared to the one i tried at Sakura wif shuk&gang on fri, Sakura's red ruby is really no standard. u can't even rank it. it's taste like nth but coconut milk.
just a radom pic.
ever seen a christmas tree in red? haha now u have it!
this tree was simple but NOT NICE. it's was placed in the middle of The Cathey. so this red thing caught my attention when i was on my way for dao hua~
chun hui went off awhile after weiling came. so this is us having our dao hua session~
Saturday, November 18, 2006
is it really brighter on the other side?
was happily sleeping but got woke up by papa as usual.
1:54:00 AM
he never failed to come hm wif a bang.
went to read up some stuff about people i care & i'm glad to see that things has changed. for the better i guess. am i correct?
sometimes i do wonder but i dare not ask. cause i do believe that the impact is way too big for you to handle even till now. i don't even dare to leave a note. you can say i don't have guts but it's more like i'm afraid to be rejected. so all i can do is just stand aside and watch.
Take care of yourself. Hope it will get better for you.
Stress. A hug is all i need.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
you will be mine for 9 days i guess?
carrie baby, do u know u can heat the minjiangkueh in the oven? haha so i guess u still can have it when u r back. =) no worries abt tt. as for muahchee, we'll get it the next day unless i know how to make tt. which i'm rather sure u will NOT wat to try it.
12:35:00 AM
btw u will b back on 22nd rite? friday night rite? so may i know wat does that going to do with breakfast & my timetable?
anyway when u r back, i'll b on holiday~ hehe ain't u happy to heard tt?! btw even if i have sch, i'll skip it just for u like old times. so dun worry i'm all urs for all u need. =) & since it's a friday night tt u will b back, how can u b at home!? we can club, chill or just do anything to hang out & catch up. i'll b glad to b the one to bring u for dou jiang you tiao for supper. =P we can roam around geylang eating all those stuff tt u miss while u were away.
so i guess if u were to divide tt 9 days among those ppl who matters, i'm sure 1 day is not enough for us~
can't wait for u to b back man! miss u so sO SO MUCH!!!
Monday, November 13, 2006
white & pure
10:11:00 PM
roses are white but not as pure.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
RIGHT day
went to visit grandmama today. was kind of wondering how is she doing. so i asked my mom to have dinner over at her place instead.
2:46:00 AM
a few weeks back, mom told me tt grandmama fainted in the coffee shop and it's uncle who carried her back hm. but fainting still ain't tt bad. the worst part is tt grandmama dun even know tt she fainted! gosh, i guess when u really black out, u really do BLACK OUT. she's 85 yrs old & tt really make her real old. her memory isn't really tt gd any more but other than tt, she's fine. =) so thank god for tt.
so grandmama & me went for a walk today round the neighbourhood~ YEAH! haha. she insisted on buying something for us (us as in me & my younger bro) to eat even though i've told her 1000 TIMES tt mom is cooking dinner. (-.-) so to make sure she is fine, i tag along.
while crossing the road, something amazing happen. my grandmama held me hand!!! ok u must b thinking wat's the big F*** abt it rite? the thing is ever since the day i'm able to remember things, i can't remember a time tt my grandmama held me hands b4. so ya, i was rather shock by tt. but i'm happy. at least i know she loves her granddaughter even though i got no idea whether she remember who i am. =)
the way she held my hand were so tight, so sure. it's like i'm still a kid. as if tt i might run & dash across the road & get knock down by cars or something. the secure she gave is powerful. i can feel tt she wans to protect me. making sure tt nth bad will ever happen to me. it's something i can't describe with words.
she just make me wanna make sure nth will ever happen to her.
anyway here's another issue.
my HK trip is offically flush down the drain by me~
after all the planning, price checking + the trouble, i've cancel my plan to HK. so ya i'm only going to Shanghai for the mission. you must be wondering why did i cancel it right? well, it's because i dun wan to make myself regret again although it won't really kill. but i'm rather sure i will not b able to enjoy myself in HK for the 2nd time. the 1st time i went HK, it kind of suck for me cause i was not in a very gd mood (some shit cock up a few days b4 i fly off). so ya, i dun wan the same thing to happen again.
lalala~
at least now i'm happy & i know i will never ever regret on that decision. gosh the whole afternoon i was thinking on tt but thank god grandmama was there to shake me off thinking abt it once in a while with her repeated questions~
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
i want
i want to dance so so so much now.
7:17:00 PM
baby where are you!?!?!
can you fly back from melbourne just for me now? haha it's ladies nite you know~
ok it's crap but seriously i wanna dance so much now.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
thanks for not hating me
thanks for letting everything go.
12:37:00 AM
to me, this is not the stupidest things to do coz it's takes a real gentelman to let go. no clinging, no phone calls, no please-don't-leave-me kind of beg & no ass hole kind of behaviour. that's the best way to put this to an end.
thanks for not hating me for what i've done.
i wanna let you know that if one day you needed someone to talk to, i'm always here.
Friday, November 03, 2006
what am i
suddenly one of them is back. not good.
9:59:00 AM
in the past there's no explanation given to the sudden MIA after christmas. i search for answer to know what had happen and someone did give me an answer. to know the truth is very hurting. looks like status and wealth of the family matters alot.
but that's not my freaking fault.
i can't chose whether am i able to be born into a rich family a not.
now the sudden calls and smses really did make me wonder what you want from me? why are you back out of a sudden? is it because you are feeling empty & i'm your bloody back up plan? i hope that's not the answer.
i wonder do you know that you did let me fall so badly that i can't really get up. during that depression, it made me think and wonder a hell lot of stuff. i wanna tell you that you have taken me for a ride. a bad one. i will forgive you but trust me i will never forget.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
=)
thanks for the hug.
10:56:00 AM
i need it rather badly.
it's rather hard forget the things that had happen recently. sometimes it just come back haunting you.
but you have make it better. much better. at least now i can live without feeling guilty.
thanks.