Monday, October 30, 2006
sorry
i know the pain you feel inside you.
12:38:00 AM
i know every single bit of it.
everything was not for fun. i did take it seriously. i really did.
time is something you have. you can have it all you wan. but why don't you tell me ever since the beignning that you need time to adjust? looks like talking or not talking really does make a very big different.
now everything is too late. i'm sorry. i know there's no point saying it anymore but i really didn't mean to do this to you. didn't mean to break you and make you fall flat again. i really do enjoy the time we spend together. every single day of it. but there's something missing. & we both know.
so sorry but you didn't love me the way i want it to be.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
it a fine day =)
woke up smiling to myself today.
12:31:00 PM
=) it must have been a great day ahead tt's wat i told myself. & it really is! was rather in the mood to do my project in sch at last~ my final project of the year! hope this additude will go on for the next few months till i complete it. there's so many things to b done, to write & to draw.
he love the fried rice lao ma zi n i prepared for him yesterday. yes i know finally u start to see some "him/he" in my blog. =) my ai xin bian tang. haha tt lazy bum expected tt he will b hungry by the time i reached. the way he happily sit down infront of the computer and finish the whole thing up is just so adorable. the kind of expression on his face is just sweet. so contented. happiness is wat i guess he is feeling at tt point of time. hmm so i wonder m i correct?
so finally lao ma zi get to see him yesterday. thank god no bad comments is said. which mean it's a passed! her comments has always been the main reason tt affect the things i do. so i thank her for saying nth much abt yesterday. coz as always, all she ask for is me to b happy.
Monday, October 23, 2006
the wedding nite
so on last sunday was chun hui's big day! a kiss frm us~
10:38:00 PM
went over to my bao bei's place wif weiling to get our hair n make up done! after 4 hrs of fooling around in her rm, finally we r set n ready to go! i can say bao bei's skill has really improve man! it's hard to find a gal who has the same view on beauty as u. so i thank god i found her! =) hehe i'm sure bao bei also thank me frm introducing weiling to her~ it's a secret between the 3 of us.
chun hui was the first one in my grp of friend who got married. so let's wish her all the best for her future and forever after with her love.
the usual "yum seng" session on stage.
endless of "yum seng"...
finally a pic wif the bride. 
a beautiful shot. by me~ but she look gorgeous too!
finally the nite is over & it's time for our photo taking session!!!
she's tired. a whole day of perparing & entertaining. finally it's over! yeah!!!
Changi Village
baby. =) this is wat u wanna see (more of SG)~ haha dunno have u been there a not but this is the new changi boardwalk after a renovation. i was there wif my course for a site visit on last thur morning.
6:11:00 PM
let me bring u on a trip wif me.
this is not an ordinary tree. haha it's a swamp tree. look at it's trunk. it's in the sea! & it's in the middle of nowhere. 
a map of changi. 
a stair way that lead to nowhere. 
Friday, October 20, 2006
this is crap
Landscape Design Studio 3 - D
11:07:00 AM
Plants & Site Planning - D
Urban Environment & Society - F
Project Management in Landscape - F
ok so i guess zaion did really pull me grades down. but looks like it's as gd as me not handing the project in the first place.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
the new & the boring
InSchool so this is how bored i m in sch today. reach sch freaking early today which was a mistake. should have just stay at hm & sleep for an hr more. coz uncle steven take attendance at the end of the day! WTH lor! shit man i come sch early & he so late take attendance. just my luck. but thank god shy yih is there to accompany me for breakfast & spend those boring hrs wif me. =) after tt, i'm so bored in class to the extend tt i took out my camera & start shooting wats around me. TheNewVivoCity one of the intersection point Vivo City is finally up n running! there lots of store in there & i'm sure it will b my best shopping place other than freaking boring orchard. tt place is super huge! maybe it's because the pathways r real wide. i'm sure there will b enough space for ppl to walk around without having the need to complain tt it's too crowded. baby u will love to shop here. =) but still there's quite a few shop still under renovation but i guess by the time u r back, most of it will b done. all thx to tommy. i got to catch a movie @ GV Gold Class. =) a freaking tix tt cost $25. ain't tt ex?! but i'm a happy girl~ haha. bro just love to pamper me with all these wonderful treats. abt wat show we r watching, we watched miami vice. & i can tell u it's not really tt nice. gosh, wat's happening to movie nowadays. y ain't there a show tt's nice? hmm look like only step up is the only show tt's worth waiting for. StJamesPowerStation entrance of mono one of the KTV rooms in mono after the movie, tommy & i went over to st james power station to take a look. so far only mono & drangonfly is up & running. mono is a space tt consist of 2 storeys. the 1st level is more like a normal pub where ppl just sing n everyone can hear u. the 2nd level has lots of private rooms just like kbox. BUT i call assure u tt the rm is comfirm 5 times nice than kbox & 2 times bigger. so mono is a ktv area. dragonfly is a place where there's singers singing those chinese pop song. haha it's rather funny when u can hear those jolin chai, wilber pan, jay chow songs in a CLUB!
2:13:00 AM
our dear mr tan crapping with shi fu's grp
dawn, thomas & glenn working hard eh~
my desk...as clean as ever!
the timber decking around the building for ppl to look at the sea
an open area at the 3rd level. a nice place for couple & friends to chill out at nite.
a small space for u to chill out b4 ur movie.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
buffet after jogging = sinful
i guess yesterday's jogging session in sch was a waste. all down the bloody drain man!
12:31:00 PM
there goes my 6 clicks.
so like every tues, all the WOW ppl frm alvin's guild would have an outting coz tues is WOW's Server Down Day. haha. but yesterday was a bit more special. it's our dear kelvin birthday! so we had a makan session at rice table. hmm i wonder when was the time i last been there man. but still, the food there taste the same. no improvement at all. the worst part of it, the service SUCK! maybe because there's like 30 of us walk into tt place at one go so the whole service crew sort of dunno wat to do first. haha. NO EXPERIENCE PPL. even the manager also abit cock up. but thank god in the end we manage to eat in peace.
we eat till it's time for tt place need to close. so all of us move to starbucks to continue our chit chat session. had a short chat wif james. he was asking me again wat course i m in. haha looks like no one seem to know wat exactly wat i'm doing even if i tell them wat course i m in. when u tell him i'm in landscape architecture, he use tt what-the-hell-is-that look & look at me.
so again i need give him a short description on wat i'm doing....
like everyone else, he thinks tt my line dun really have much space for me to excel. but who cares man. i'm not going to continue in this. haha. but for james, he go the hard way in education. he finish Os, got enroll into ITE coz he scored rather bad for Os, into army, then into poly. kaoz. he waste a few years. but to him it doesn't matter on the years he had spend coz now he knows wat he wans in life. wat he wan in a job after jumping around in diff jobs. we had the same thinking on wat a dream job should be. might not b 100% perfect but as long as u r happy, it's enough. he gave me real gd advice. & i'm happy tt someone is willing to listen to me and talk to me abt wat they think.
Monday, October 09, 2006
hopes = pressure
got to chat wif bro on msn today. as usual, we talk abt the future in a way. abt money, abt our mom, abt wat we can do to lessen her burden. he was thinking of opening a shop to sells accessories & stuff coz he find it's a profitable business. he said money would not b a matter coz he got his ways to get it. i think it's not a bad idea. a right place for me to b at after i grad. =)
11:46:00 PM
i told him tt i'm planning to give jewellery design a try. since now i have some money, i'll just do something i use to like. as usual, he is encouraging. he said i should have go into tt long ago. coz sheena is earning not bad frm it! haha i know i'm abit slow but at least now i'm trying. so thx to rainie for inspiring me. thx for the encouragement. i really need to search for my flare in design. tt passion i used to have when i was in sec sch. tt passion tt mr san gave to me. hai where had it all been? god knows where.
bro is worried abt where i will b after i grad. he is worried abt whether will i b able to find a job, make money n support our family. gosh, this is stressing. he has already pinned some hopes on me. & i seriously dun wan to disappoint him. i told him tt i'm sort of sure tt i will not going into landscape line but i will definitely find a clerical job somewhere & earn tt money tt i should b earning.
but no matter how, design is still my passion in the first place. i'm sure i've chose this path for a purpose.
temptation is addictive
it's really addictive & now i know. i don't believe u when u said tt in the first place but now i do. this must stop no matter how. must avoid. if not i'm sure someone out there will kill me for it. but still it's gd in a way too~ HAHA
12:22:00 AM
anyway this weekend passed real fast. just a blink of an eye & there goes my fri, sat & sun! didn't really did anything much coz my dear headache is back. my head was spinning the whole sat night for no reason. even panadol don't help anymore. all thanks to the wonderful weather in sg.
went to search for my dress for chun hui's wedding today! thank god finally i found something at a gd price + it's almost exactly wat i wan in mind! a cute dress tt has small flower prints on it. very classic looking. tt's my style. vintage is wat i love. =)
b4 buying tt, i was walking the whole of bugis village, walking into every shop tt sells dress and trying almost every dress they have. but still, because i was rather in proportion in my body shape, it's hard to find a dress tt suit me nicely. so finally i went to the 2nd level of bugis street and i so happen to pass by a really small shop at a corner. i just causally walked in to take a look. & tt's how i find my dress! totally unexpected. tt lady give me discount without even me asking. tt's so sweet of her! she even say "u buy the dress u must wear it. if not, it will really go down the drain." it was rather thoughtful of her to tell me tt coz i'm know there's lots of girls out there who buy dress & in the end they didn't wear it. but for me, tt dress i will definitely wear it.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
DLA
today i should have just sleep my way through the day & shouldn't have go for sch. today was a total crap. sch starts at 8am & as usual i was late~ haha i reached around 11am. & guess what? uncle steven was on MC so there's no lecture in the afternoon which means that class ends at 1pm.
11:07:00 PM
just my luck.
purposely come for sch & in the end our dear uncle steven is sick.
rainie arrive in class not long after i've reached. & man she look pretty today~ well dress up for the day. =) so naturally our dear mr tan will love to take a look & hang around. tt's bloody old man. just love to look at gals who wear really short shorts n low cut tops. even since the first day of sch, he didn't really talk to us much abt our research BUT today he just casually walk to rainie & ask her how our team is doing. is like "DUH~ HELLO? THE LEADER IS HERE!" y can't he ask me abt it when i'm like rite beside rainie.
so conculsion : mr tan is an ass hole who is looking for some kicks in young girls like us.
Monday, October 02, 2006
this is overwhelming
can't really concentrate in sch today. was thinking abt too much stuff. thinking abt wat had happen recently. this is just way too overwhelming.
11:48:00 PM
even when mdm zai was talking to me abt wat my grp has done for the project, i'm giving her a day dream look. this is bad. i dunno y but i just can shake it off. i just can't stop thinking. smiling to myself is indeed stupid. so after an hr of talking to us (which 50% of it is talking crap), we r allow to left and continue doing our research.
so back at my desk. i'm staring at my computer screen BLANKLY. this is shit. just can't concentrate. but thank god a call settle all the problem n after tt, at last i can somehow try to concentrate and search all the information i need for my project.
u show my wonders.
i'm indeed shock.
now i know wat is call never judge a bk by it's cover.