Wednesday, June 28, 2006
You are missed...
An hour has passed...but to me it just feel like 5 mins ago that carrie has flew off to melbourne. Before she went into the departure hall, we hug each other goodbye & cried. Crying was not in my plan coz i know it's bad to send her off that way. but when i saw her crying when she hugged her sis goodbye, my eyes start to teared too...we dun bare to let each other go & we know tt very well but we got to let go no matter how (even till now i still feel like crying. it's like there's something missing)...With her father nagging at the back "it's time liao. faster go in." I was like "y can't the hell he just shut up & let us have some more quality time. it's like who the hell we bare to let go a friend tt has been throught all her ups n down for 13 years!" 13 years man! no joke! she was my only anytime-anywhere kakiz...she was a friend i grew up wif & we have seen each other's disgusting stage of life when we were young & we never mind abt tt at all.
11:07:00 PM
ever since young we were very different. she was frm a english speaking family n i was frm a chinese speaking family. she always do well in her exmas & i'm totally opp. becoz of one sch sentosa trip we got to talk to each other. our way of communicating wif each other was unique!hahaha!~ she was speaking english to me while i'm speaking chinese to her! & we understand wat each other are talking abt. since then, we were best friend.
since monday, i can't sleep well. i will toss n turn like nobody business. dun know for wat bloody reason. perharps i'm too worried. worried that no one will b at her side when she needs one. worried that no one will b there to cheer her on. worried that no one will be there to share her joy n tears.
just now at the airport, i gave her a scrapbook that contains those photos that we had took since young and a few other small gifts as a farewell gift & lester bought her the chocolate from baroque~ When we were there choosing the chocolates, lester was thinking of buying each of every flavour and i was like "she will never be able to finish it! even if she finish it, i guess she will puke while in the plane & curse n swear at u!" so in the end he only got 4 chocolate for her! sorry babe if u wan more u got to come back to get it. hahah!
carrie baby this is for u: it's great to have a friend like you for 13 years. thx for accpecting for what n who i am. u r indeed special. sorry for all the shit i've put u through althought tt's is wat we call "life". always remember to take extra gd care of urself coz i will not b there. when u need me, i'm just a phone call away frm u. i will drop by one day to visit u so just wait for me! tt's all babe. take care.
