Saturday, November 11, 2006
RIGHT day
went to visit grandmama today. was kind of wondering how is she doing. so i asked my mom to have dinner over at her place instead.
2:46:00 AM
a few weeks back, mom told me tt grandmama fainted in the coffee shop and it's uncle who carried her back hm. but fainting still ain't tt bad. the worst part is tt grandmama dun even know tt she fainted! gosh, i guess when u really black out, u really do BLACK OUT. she's 85 yrs old & tt really make her real old. her memory isn't really tt gd any more but other than tt, she's fine. =) so thank god for tt.
so grandmama & me went for a walk today round the neighbourhood~ YEAH! haha. she insisted on buying something for us (us as in me & my younger bro) to eat even though i've told her 1000 TIMES tt mom is cooking dinner. (-.-) so to make sure she is fine, i tag along.
while crossing the road, something amazing happen. my grandmama held me hand!!! ok u must b thinking wat's the big F*** abt it rite? the thing is ever since the day i'm able to remember things, i can't remember a time tt my grandmama held me hands b4. so ya, i was rather shock by tt. but i'm happy. at least i know she loves her granddaughter even though i got no idea whether she remember who i am. =)
the way she held my hand were so tight, so sure. it's like i'm still a kid. as if tt i might run & dash across the road & get knock down by cars or something. the secure she gave is powerful. i can feel tt she wans to protect me. making sure tt nth bad will ever happen to me. it's something i can't describe with words.
she just make me wanna make sure nth will ever happen to her.
anyway here's another issue.
my HK trip is offically flush down the drain by me~
after all the planning, price checking + the trouble, i've cancel my plan to HK. so ya i'm only going to Shanghai for the mission. you must be wondering why did i cancel it right? well, it's because i dun wan to make myself regret again although it won't really kill. but i'm rather sure i will not b able to enjoy myself in HK for the 2nd time. the 1st time i went HK, it kind of suck for me cause i was not in a very gd mood (some shit cock up a few days b4 i fly off). so ya, i dun wan the same thing to happen again.
lalala~
at least now i'm happy & i know i will never ever regret on that decision. gosh the whole afternoon i was thinking on tt but thank god grandmama was there to shake me off thinking abt it once in a while with her repeated questions~
